14th August 2006,
5.14pm Monday Cool. Yeah, busy weekends. Whole day Saturday working and CVS conference. Yes, learned a lot, but still so tiring. Sleep the earliest ever 10pm already knock off. Sunday conference continued on....till lunch, then Family Day. Tiring yet fulfilling. This year we don't have Family Camp, so Family Day organised in Penang to cater more members to participate. My team (Yellow) won 3rd Prize.
Yeah, I join Mawar Team. Had been questioned many many times, a lot people has been asking me which Cell have I decided to join. Each time the question posted, I felt just speechless. By my floating, will I be aencouraging others to float to other Cell? Will my act giving approval to others that it's okie to float? Yeah, Andrew has been asking me many times, whether to join JOC, Jon asked, Ps. Sam asked. I really don't know. At this point I'm quite comfortable going around CGs, getting to know more people, exposing myself to different types of CGs. Andrew point out one thing, quite strong Word, but it's true: "Touch and Go". Am I touching and just go? Not settling down and grow. True indeed. Maybe I am still struggling on myself- just don't want to decide too fast and want more 'resting' time. Well...I don't think anyone can identify with such feeling. I told others- hmmm....will decide soon, will decide soon, probably end of the year. Well, maybe I'm just too selfish, keep delaying. Yet I'm assured the time will come for me to find the place of belonging, a place to settle down, grow and serve again...it's just a matter of the right time, right place. Just need to be prayerful, and look forward. God-driven and not Man-driven.
